Well, it has been way too long since I have blogged. Life as always is full. My dear husband Paul was coming up for his 100th career win. Lots of people might giggle and say,"Hasn't he played for like 12 years and he only has 100 career wins?" I can see their point. It looks so simple and effortless. But the true story is so much more than that. I mean were you there when he blew his shoulder out, was put on waivers, had Tommy John's or through years of insomnia?? I was. This crazy baseball life has been an intense adventure. So I had to be with him when he hit this achievement. So I went to Chicago. Loss. Cleveland. Loss. Kansas City. Loss(bad loss). And finally we went to Detroit and HE WON!!! I was so happy for him. It was a milestone for him. I thought we'd celebrate quietly. What touched me the most was that the best clubhouse guy Tony knew about it too. He had champagne for Paul. He did joke and say he'd been carrying it for a while and it had cobwebs on it! The organization made a big deal out of it. And I realized how much it means when we take the time to celebrate each other's special days. Even if it's little to you, it might mean something really big to someone else. A friend recently said, "Why is it that we celebrate people after they die? We all make time to come in and tell stories and honor this life. But the person is dead and never felt what he meant to you." So true.
I'm reading a great book about judgment. Just how it's a natural thing for us to do but it is destructive and something we need to fight against. I have become aware of all the ways I do this. I assume I know why others do the things they do. I am critical of anything I eat off of my diet. I believe my world view is God's world view. I know ,I know what my kids are thinking. It's been an amazing process to just observe and ask questions rather than making up a story about what went on and committing to that. What I see from that habit is me getting my feelings hurt less and feeling good about me. So I am now working on being kind to me and giving others lots of grace and space to grow. I'm feeling lighter and more peaceful. Stay tuned...
I went to CA over the weekend on a road trip. It was alot of fun. Anyone who knows me knows I am all about hotels. I have been known to never leave the room and conduct all business in white robes and slippers! I love the beds, room service and the idea that I have no choice but to relax. What a treat. Lately, I have felt discouraged with God. Mainly, I feel like I am going through a time of faith and not feelings. I find that to be challenging. I like warm fuzzies!! But I am learning to trust God in everything regardless of my circumstances and feelings. So I am trusting in the mystery and unknown. I was spending time in the hotel room with my dear friend Shauna. She likes hotels too! We were lounging and talking about how God gives us what we need at just the right time. Then the door opens and it is room service. We nicely said," No!No! We didn't order room service." He came in and said he had something for us. It was a plate. It had four large fresh baked cookies with an edible chocolate note that said,"Welcome!" They were so delicious. An oatmeal with dried fruit and nuts, a chocolate chip, macadamia chip and peanut butter. As silly as it sounds I took it as a warm fuzzy from God. It was a little reminder of His provision and thoughtfulness. I guess I NEEDED cookies.