Wow has it been since June since I last blogged??? Crazy. This summer has been absolutely crazy. We've traveled, released Paul's new book and I've gone to at least 30 baseball games. I also learned how to play Corn Hole(the name sounds awful but it's quite innocent). I have been trying to go with the flow more and trust God's daily pace for me. It's been a challenge in that I love a semi-predictable schedule with lots of built in margin time. I like to read and work on coaching and learn. But this summer has been about support, traveling and flexibility. But I am going back to Atlanta tom. Yippee!!! I get to sleep in my own bed something I have not experienced since March 1st!
I have been learning two lessons this summer that have really impacted my personal growth and my day to day experience. The first is that I need to commit to the idea daily that God is good.....Al the time. I can hear the Amen Choir in the back. I have known this but not really practiced this if that makes sense. I find that I am saying it out loud and after things that are so frustrating. Something breaks, I lose an important paper, Paul's team has a 13 inning game and is leaving in the morning, the kids are not listening to me, my kids both throw up on road trips... I am tempted every time to get mad at God. I mean He is ruining my plans. But I am learning to relax and say God You are good and You have what's best for me in mind all the time. My friend Sylvia and I text each other when the results come though after we doubted and were stressed....."ALL THINGS." Which brings me to my second lesson. Why is God always having to prove something to me? Why is it that amnesia comes over me when a crisis arrises and I forget who and what He has done for me? I was thinking the other day about Paul's baseball career. When he got his 100th win everyone was so happy with him. When he played against the Yankees in the playoffs most of the press and most of the fans were outraged. He was insulted for throwing "junk at 86 miles per hour." And then we win and he's good enough. They forgot to remember that he is the master of creativity. They had no idea the "Double Pump" was in the works! I see that with God. Time and time again He has come through for me in ways I never could have imagined. I raised two kids mostly alone and He was there and they somehow are alive and well. I have moved over 50 times. I had crazy neighbors, flea infestations, scary dark apartments that smelled of onions, family dynamics I could write a year about, health problems, pitching arm problems, Hgh problems and yes money problems. All situations that when they came up were bothersome and overwhelming. I felt I had to solve the problem or perhaps worry it to death. And always there was an end to it and always God came though. I'm not saying He came though Kym Byrd style. For some reason, He keeps doing things His way and not mine! Imagine that. But out of chaos and confusion with lots of added stress I saw something. I saw GOOD. Good came out of it and it had God's double pump written all over it. I am finishing a book called "A Deeper Kind of Calm." In it the author asks you to write a list of all the ways God has come through for you. It took me a while to do it, But when I did I was amazed at all the times I thought it was the end of the world. And it made me sad for God. It must be so frustrating to come through and no one remembers. So you come through again. And again. And again. Hoping this time that Kym will remember!! I am embracing that He is good and He has always come though today in the midst of my daily challenges.
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